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Reinventing myself as a writer to distract me from my disability. Quora author, Vocal Media author, Published at National Pain Report, Chronic Pain Blogger.
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Pain expert Richard (Red) Lawhern is brilliant. He is also one of the biggest advocates in the chronic pain community. I am definitely a fan of his, and when I was writing for the now-defunct National Pain Report, I was honored to discover that he became a fan of mine as well.

Red’s experience comes from being the caretaker of both his wife and his daughter. They suffer from chronic pain, and they too have been taken off their meds. He is recognized within the medical community as being an expert on the topic of chronic pain treatment. …

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Lately, I’ve been wondering if I did something to piss off the universe.

As I look back on the last few years, I have done everything in my power to be more positive. I have made strides in my life I never thought possible.

I have freed myself from the bondage of silence by rediscovering the writer inside me.

I go out of my way to make sure that I don’t piss anyone off and yet somehow, I cannot help but think that somehow I have pissed off the universe.

I started wondering this when I was in a car…

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The question is not only when, but it is also where and how. Together, these questions are really important as the answer to one could impact the answer to the others.

If I was smarter, the time would have already come.

Not that I’m stupid, because I am actually really smart about a number of things.

Choosing my relationships is not one of them. Just call me the narcissist magnet.

That which does not kill us makes us stronger ~ Nietzsche

Well, I lived through the previous two narcissists. I’m practiced. I would just rather not do it again. …

I’m a different person than I was one year ago

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It blows my mind how much the last year has changed me.

In a few short weeks, I reach the milestone of my 60th birthday, and the changes I have experienced in the past year have aged me in ways I never saw coming.

One year ago, I was happy. I was doing something I never thought I would enjoy as much as I did. I was a Lyft driver in Las Vegas, NV. I was independent, I had my own resources. I was truly living.

October 17, 2020, was…

I remember the last time I was truly happy. It was not really a time when happiness was called for actually. I was being emotionally abused from a distance by my husband, and I was beginning to plan my escape. But those times when I was not being screamed at over the phone, or walking on eggshells because he was in town, in that tiny falling down guest house on the side of a Colorado mountain were some of the greatest and happiest times of my life.

It was the housemates. It was that old house. It was just about…

I like to think of myself as a survivor even though it is easier to be considered the victim.

What little is left over after he was done is still a bit shaky sometimes.

It has been 2–1/2 years since he died, and almost 4 years since he destroyed me.

Some days I feel strong, like I can conquer the world.

Today is not one of those days.

Today is one of those days where I mourn the person I lost, the perceptions of those most important that he purposely destroyed.

Today I am weak and the tears flow freely.

That is what the former guy would have us believe…

I was reading an article about how Trump was loudly criticizing the press this past weekend. He felt that there was too much coverage of Hurricane Ida and not enough coverage praising him for his deal with the Taliban.

Because terrorists are more important than a hurricane decimating our cities, leaving thousands homeless, millions without power.

Ya know, when most people leave public office, they actually leave public office. This sick joke of a human being just doesn’t get it. …

No, I’m not crazy…let me explain

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I’m preparing for my third shoulder surgery.

Let me clarify that — I am preparing for my third shoulder surgery THIS YEAR!

I really didn’t choose to tear my rotator cuff during a deadly pandemic. That was just my luck, but when you are in a rollover accident, shit happens.

Unfortunately, that shit usually happens to me.

Prednisone is a steroid that is useful for getting rid of inflammation. For those of us with auto-immune disorders, Prednisone will basically reboot our immune system.

Part of the rebooting process is essentially crashing it.

While that…

I thought I already knew a lot, but it is so much worse than I imagined

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When you write for content mills, you never know what kind of job you will write for next.

Last night, I was looking for jobs on one of the services I work for when I noticed an order for Narcissistic Personality Disorder.

Experience alone made me grab that job without even a second thought.

For the next 12 hours, I read everything there is to read about NPD.

The first article I pulled up literally made me nauseous. It described my life to a…

The opioid crisis has just gotten worse for chronic pain patients

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For several years now, the chronic pain community has had a lot of challenges thanks to the opioid crisis. Most of us watched helplessly as we were ruthlessly stripped of the only medications that had ever provided us any relief.

We had long endured being treated like addicts or mental cases because most of our illnesses and conditions are ‘invisible.’ Doctors coming out of medical school today are taught that opioids do nothing for chronic pain.

They are wrong.

We sat by and waited to see if the national…

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